Friday celebration time! Not only is it Friday but it’s also the Friday before I take a week off! It’s been years since I’ve taken a week long vacation. I’m beyond excited. I’m beyond freaked out. I’ve managed to exhaust myself with all the feelings.
This past week has been a lot of pivoting between stress over leaving work, stress over leaving my team to tackle my workload, excitement about not being at work, guilt over not being at work, excitement about seeing friends, guilt over leaving Colbs & the dog, you get the picture.
On Monday, I thought this week would never end. Now it’s Friday and I don’t know where the week went. But I do know that this week was amazing and I won’t remember that if I don’t celebrate it. I might remember the stress, the breakneck pace or the fact that I turned into a fumbling klutz to a ridiculous level but there are so many wins!
Treat Yo’ Self!
First of all, I got the cutest new bag – silly you say? Whatever, this thing is freaking adorable and every time I look at it I’m totally excited to use it.
I don’t treat myself very often but I knew that I needed more than my backpack for my vaca. I didn’t want to pack luggage for a road trip either.
Sometimes it’s the little things.
Seeing the Impact
There have been some changes where I work (change is the only constant) and I feel like my already full days were just stuffed even more. I’ve been struggling with how to feel about it. On one hand, I’m already feeling stretched thin. On the other hand, I love what I’m doing. I also appreciate the faith that I can accomplish this and I love the challenge.
This week, things just seemed to fall into place – albeit stacked on top of each other – and I got to have a lot of really great conversations. They made me realize how far I’ve come.
I’ve been at this company for almost three years. So frequently, I feel like I’m new. We have new technology, changes in organizational structure, changes in products, it seems like every month. I had several conversations with clients and potential clients this week where I didn’t stumble. I knew the answer. I knew the questions to ask.
And, most importantly, I saw how this affected my company. I saw the wins. Happy clients, purchasing clients, educated clients. It feels like I’ve been pushing to move the mountain, inch by inch and this week I looked back and realized I’d gone a mile.
I had an awesome call today with a potential client. I spoke with a CMO and two leading partners in the firm. It was a great call. I felt good about it and thought they’d likely become clients but the call ended and they needed to think about it.
Perfect. I’d follow up after vacation… The CMO called back in 5 minutes asking for a contract. Awesome. Then about two hours later I get a note from MY CEO giving me kudos for it – he’d received a compliment about me from the CMO.
The thing that makes this feel so good is that it wasn’t overly special. This was a call where I just tried to do my best and answer their questions. It makes me feel more accomplished than anything I’ve done to date.
Vacation around the corner
As I’m writing this, my friend is sending me pics of one of the wineries we’re going to. I’m about an hour away from being home and beginning the week of chill.
I’m taking a full week, driving away from home with the world’s cutest bag packed to spend some much needed vacation. It’s hard to let go of all the work, but there’s no doubt it’ll still be waiting for me when I get back.